Spica

Afternoons where I just whisper your name out- how many times have I cried now, because you're always on my mind somehow? But a superficial love... surely will never reach you. Melodies are constantly born on my piano, bittersweet and over flowing; this resonating after glow- when will it touch your heart?


I went on a date today. The first one in over 2 years, with N. He was sweet, funny, nice and enjoyable to be around. 


But no matter what, I couldn't get S out of my mind. I really loved being with N, but it felt like he was acting more as a friend than a potential boyfriend. It's funny how something so perfect on paper can feel so wrong in person. There was no spark at all, at least not for me. 


S called me on Skype twice tonight. Once when I was home, and once a few ours later when he was getting ready for his Expo. His friend M was there. I had a lot of fun talking to them and watching them get ready. It makes me excited for Seishun Con next week.


Talking to S feels so happy and relaxing. There's no stress or anything. I just love being around him, even if he lives a million miles away. 


I want to wait for him. 


~R


Hold me close to you
If only we had never met!
Just keep me next to you
And I'll spread my wings
Over Deneborah
And the selfish precessions
Just like you, my baby